hi
i swear the laughing in my face
will never end. i am tried of crying and crying because my mere
existence makes people laugh. i get it i never will be accept into this
society as a whole. i was so enraged that i went on the wrong train but
before i did i went up to the two girls that were laughing at me. i
said," how is it going girls? then i said, " i see you were laughing at
me..... " they both denied and shook their heads. i hope they got a good
laugh at me and i am sure they will tell their friends like so many
others in this world.
i wish god would come take me away or .............i am tired of fighting. i just wnat to go away and never have
people laugh at me but if i do this i can never get surgery. i am in
between a rock and rock....
this reminds so much of the marines and how civilians treated us off
base. one time in the marines off base my friend and i went to a
restaurant and the waitress tried to sit us in the back of the
restaurant. we actually had to talk to the manager and press the issue
before we were allowed to sit in the front. i am not talking about the
1960's but 1978 there abouts.
then other times when we,the marines, were at bus stops people
would yell nasty stuff at us. we were just waiting for the bus that is
it. people would glare at us and whisper then laugh just like my laugh
today. there is no difference in how i was treated while serving our
country in the late 1970's and now, none. people laugh, glare and do
not dare come near me and above all will not be seen with me by a friend
or family member. my life today is an exact match of how i was treated
by society in the late 1970's while serving this country. Portland is
no different than any other city in the united states based on my 3 plus
yrs in this city.
I am safe at work, the va but in the public arena it all depends but others avoid association with me because????
thank you
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