rachel: how I healed and back to rachel and xerox

hi

I wanted to share how I healed my heart and soul in such a short period of time. first, the women around me are angels in my life. their faith in me never waived however they did not enable me but held me up and they actually pushed me forward because of the relationship we have developed over the years  .

I have a great therapist at the portland va and well... she said rachel you want to work on this worksheet or..... as you pulled it away from me... i said yes... she said are you sure.. i was laughing so hard because she was closing me on a sale of helping myself and I knew it. i would not trade her for anyone. she has been nothing but fantastic to me.

The woman who requested I see the therapist .... said words I never heard her use..... " you promise you will go to your therapist..... that scared me because that is when I knew the situation last week was serious.  I immediately reached out to my therapist.

The third woman well this is a complicated situation.  I can say this publicly that some might think she is really stern but I see her as a very strong woman .  she says what she feels she has to and what is in your best interest not what you want to hear. this is exactly what a friend does , a true friend any how.  she told me .... I expect you to do follow though with what your therapist told you ... and relax....this woman makes me laugh because she is so much like the women in my family. but more importantly she says many things I am thinking in any given moment and in all honesty knows what and how I will react to any given situation.  she is a source of strength to me that  many would  not understand ......

here is the email i sent to a friend and what helped me along with my friends


i really healed because I changed what I watch and listen to . I watched a movie on netflix "the perfect ending." which was about a lesbian love affair which ended with one passing due to an illness. I was in tears and it really touched my heart.

I also listened to celine dion.... love her music .....over one hour of xmas and very calming music

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qTS-2CJkbKQ&list=LLc8dChWdbSxWn7OKYGZoanw


thank you all for allowing me to share my story . as my one friend would say , " it is a honor..."

rachel