My goals to step forward and why change is important

I reached my one year anniversary of hormone therapy yesterday.  I can say with all sincerity that hormone treatment has challenged me and tested me like nothing else in my life.  I thought I had a good grasp of what I could expect on hormone treatment. I had not a clue how much it would test me and push me beyond what I thought I was capable of in the first year. 

Thus, I feel compelled to open the book on myself and let others see what a transsexual life is really like.  I don't mean how much did your breast grow and information which can be accessed in so many blogs and websites.  I have two goals: (1) share my heart felt experience on hormones and (2) to open my heart to the world and let you really know who I am and reveal a lot of my personality which I don't think has been done before.  I would ask you to ask yourselves do I know a transsexual and can I say what their interest are?  I many can and I am one that does not know a transsexual that is willing to open their heart up and share themselves with few limits.

I laugh, cry and cry some more, love, like, get upset and disappointed, make mistakes then try to correct the errors, and enjoy life all every other woman.  I , however sadly, god challenged me by replacing a vagina with a penis.  I do have nice naturally curly hair and fantastic eye lashes which was passed onto my daughter.  However, my daughter inherited my flat ass and to that I say, "you have long eye lashes."  And her response is , "but, daddy my ass is flat."  To all that I say 1 out of 2 not too bad.

My point realy is that no one really knows a transsexual because, in general, transsexual are too afraid to risk the exposure and once we "transition" we go back to total "stealth mode" where we started our life at.  I have  major issues with going stealth because now we are at the point that the transgendered community and the doctors collectively are no farther along in understand gender identity then when thi0 issue went public.  This must change and I am going to risk going public with my private life and hope in time other transsexual will open up their hearts to the put and then the doctors can better help us.

I will start the next blog with my early years and how I was just an average child in a small time and raised a little hell from time to time but nothing really big.  I was shy and soft spoken and just trying to fit in like an kid in the 1960's and 1970's.  This was the era when corporal punishment was the "norm" in society in the schools and at home.