This weekend I will gather some information I have collected over the last several months on how estrogen improves ones ability to recall so much from your childhood. I will give very specific examples that I have experienced while on estrogen for the last year.
The detail is outright scary and I would describe it as most people look through a prism in the past that is in black and white. The estrogen allows me to see things in color and if I concentrate enough I can fine tune these events and places. This is what I meant by this can be a blessing or curse in my last blog.I do not believe my case is atypical but I do understand why so many
others would not want to talk about it.
I did not believe those on estrogen could recall their childhood back to the age of 5. Again, my perception has changed, I was wrong and believe it is true and if not managed well can be a major issue/stressor on HRT. I had to do my own research to connect the dots and I hope by sharing with others they will not have to connect the dots during such a vulnerable time in our lives.
I was seriously challenged to do research while going through HRT which caused a serious increase in my anxiety. My shear determination to become who I was born to me drove me and I had the tools many others do not have based on my previous job as a project manager for a US government contractor. I did this for a living for three years and had honed my skills while at that job in finding information that was difficult if not impossible for others to find.
For example the US Navy requested that former employer have a 1955 GE Switching Locomotive repaired. Many you might be wondering why this was so important to the US Navy? This old locomotive pulls a caboose which is attached to freight cars that carrier "highly sensitive" US ammunition and Nuclear ordinance to destinations throughout the country. The two locomotives that needed repaired had not worked in over 20 years properly. I found a guy that specialized in this rare locomotive and in three months it was working like it was new. I worked tireless night and day and put in 12 plus hrs a day on this project while managing others and delivered where others had failed before.
Not once in my three years while I was a project manager did I fail to find a solution to any project. I believe that there is always a solution. The blond told me one day years ago she had heard a saying, "either you part of the problem or the solution." I believe that am problem solver whereas negative thinking focus on the the problem and people cannot see the possibility that there is a solution.
I have been working on the biggest project of my life and that is my gender. I will not and cannot fail because I visualize success not failure. I will succeed where others fail not because I am the smartest but because I have an insatiable drive to succeed and you could label that as persistence. Zig Ziglar saying is , " persistence overcomes resistance." He also says, and henry ford, "if you think you can or can't you are probably right." My positive mental attitude is a major reason that I have succeeded in the Marines, Penn State, raising my daughter and my gender.
I will leave you for now but I will have a new posting on this topic by sunday pm.
thank you
Rachel
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