Monday, April 27, 2015

Renne Richards and her impact on me with ABC videos

strangely Renee graduated from medical school the year i was born. but in 1976 i remember asking my mother as we stood in the livingroom what do you think of her ? and she said you mean him? we just starred at each other. what i really meant was what you think of me ???
Renee's boldness to take on society and identify as a woman to this day is what probably as i cry gave me faith and hope. she was a woman of character, educated and dared to challenge society.  she also wanted treated like a woman and feared, what i fear, being label a freak.  she is so much of what i am today and what i thought at the age of 16-17 y o. 

she talks in this espn/abc news documentary very openly about not making it in the love area where she thought she loved so much more before surgery.  she also said that she tried couples, men and mix of men and women, and just never happened in her life. I was crying all though this because she is exactly like me in so many ways. she has decided to just live with a female friend with no intimacy nor sexual contact. this cannot be me as i cry.... i need to know what it feels like to be a woman with a woman... this is not fun but she helped me in so many ways by telling the true story... now it is my turn..... i cannot stop what god started so long ago .. this is my opinion. i had no idea and this was played on tv at 2 pm on saturday here.

also she regrets that she left her son , now a  38 y o drug addicted, at the age of 4 y o.  her son makes her feel guilty and over the yrs she has given him so much guilt money. her son refers to her as he all the time.  i learned that i do not regret anything now because of her story about her son, about my daughter. i gave my daughter 18 years of my life and offered my love and she rejected me as a person and a woman. i was her mother who took her to the doctors and fought the battles with her other mother and did all i could for her in school and with her friends. i honestly now regret nothing just like my mother . i tried with my mother to the point my gram said why do you still try ? i said because when she is gone i know i did all i could to love my mom.. fact is my mother did not love me.... so hard to say that and write it.

the telling story of renee is that billie jean king said , " i am uneducated so please help me understand" to a experienced doctor in hormones. Billie jean King and several others including her friend who owned the tennis tournament did not back down to public pressure. her friend of 15 yrs said she deserves to play tennis and 25/30 dropped out of the tournament.  comments in the film like it is like putting head lights on a trash can it is still a trash can. nothing really had changed in my mind except there are more of us but still it happens too far often that we are freaks of society. yet so few will give us a chance.

i see the .... and ... are my billie jean kings .... our lives are so paralleled that it is scary. she refused to back down and i do too.  but she today is not happy and that is something i want more than anything is happiness. i think the stress of the high profile case did not give her the time to heal before surgery and i hope that i can heal before surgery and have a good lifew as i cry with a good wife.

my daughter will have to do what she will... i cannot control that outcome .... i did everything in my power to raise her and my gram helped. ....


i am good person as i cry ... woman.... i have incredible good heart and people just target me and the renee's for no reason but ...... it is permitted in society with no consequences. this is a major problem.

below are the 7 videos not the best quality but it is the complete renne richards film ..... i am glad she is open about all she is in this film

thank you

rachel
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