my experience has been great with women and to attack my cysgender friends is criminal based solely on their gender. the unilateral statement that the cysgender and the general public do not understand the trans community i find is discriminatory. the very discrimination that some members of the trans community detest and loathe is projected upon others is wrong by society standards and god's .
to say i am upset and hurt is understatement tonight.
below is an email to a friend ....
hi,
i am not sure why i keep trying to fit in a subculture i seem to have nearly nothing in common with but i do for some reason. i think i know that there are many of me and we have no voice. the fact that one trans woman said my opinion mattered which is sufficient tonight .
Every time I join in a discussion in a trans group it enviably eventually goes back the the cysgender issue . tonight I was talking in a group and apparently i ran into another marine who is president of some trans group in a college back east. The conversation was spirited at first but then turned south very quickly when i put my two sense in the thread.
i said what is needed is conversations which heal the soul. my journey has been mental and not physically and two people agreed however the marine did not agree with me at all. she said are you saying we should just sit down and talk to them , the cysgender's, I said absolutely . her immediate response was to name her credentials and all that she has done for the community etc etc. so i pulled out my credentials and said big deal.... we need to talk because once all the laws are in place we will be on the same side of the fence. you should ask the African Americaan community how law and etc has worked out. what is needed is conversations so we know each other as human being. Shortly after that I said I identified as a woman and she said, " well then you should get on the other side of the fence with them."
i pretended like that did hurt me but it cut me like a knife ripping my heart out. she further explained that her prospective is this is a " war" with ground troops, air and sea soldiers. i was persistent but know the real pain is the isolation in the community and i clearly pointed this out. neither one of us backed off then I said i ruffled feathers in the marines..... and i have done that here. she could not do anything but belittle my grammar and i said that does not take away from the message.
also in the conversation another trans woman stated she has no feeling of obligation after her transition. i said it is my prospective that i have an obligation to reduce the suicides and help others heal so they do not suffer like i have on hormones. none of this even hit one chord with either one of them.
i cried and cried..... again i dare say what others cannot but i am treated like a traitor. i knew when i spoke at the regional conference what i was doing and i would not ever take one word back at that speech nor anything i have said . i have spoken the truth and the war so many are fighting is one that the enemy really is within themselves. but by the time they realize it may be too late but there are so many that distance themselves from the community because of people and the agenda of people like the woman tonight.
i cried but the real sadness is because of this means one less person will be wiling to speak out in the community and i have major issues with that. this really drives me to reach the ones that feel they have no voice and help each other heal.
thank you
rachel
ps glad i have friends who care about me and i never became so angry that i did not see the light but god put me in a place for others to help me . i am crying because i know how lucky i am to be in god's hands now. i just am deeply people lash out at me for no reason but because i voice a different opinion ... makes me cry ...... at least that means i am alive .
I also feel like i have the trans political actions groups to my left the hard liners to my right and so many in the middle who will not be seen with me or other like me in public because of fear. this fear ; ziglar false evidence appearing real... drives so many out of hormones.... i heard of one such story today by an of the va community... she could not take the public humiliation by others and stopped hormones.... i am fighting for the ones that don't have the support or drive i do ....
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