I would like to respond to a couple post I read from other transsexuals on the internet. One trans woman said "..that was my six month experiment." My immediate response is that from August 4, 2011 when I started on my hormones it was "all or none." To me, there is no turning back, not now, not ever. I want it all or nothing. There is no tomorrows I have waited and planned on this for the better part of 1/2 century. Like zig ziglar says, " if you think you can or can't you're probably right."
I said in my first post I wanted to focus on the mental aspect of my hormone treatment. But, tonight in response to another trans woman post I feel compelled to share with you the physical changes that have happened in nine short months.
First, I was started on 2 mg/day of estrogen pills which almost immediately produced an appetite suppressant and sped up my metabolism. In six short months I went from, a documented, 292 lbs to 180 lbs. I did this with estrogen and my shear will to challenge my rheumatoid arthritis filled body to be pushed. I pushed it a little at first by walking a few blocks then a few more blocks. Then, I got the idea I could run, but the brain said, " that is impossible you have had RA since 1997." But, I dared to start and little by little added more and more distance. Before I knew it was December and four months into the hormone treatment I was running six miles and half of distance was up hill. My best time was 66 min for 6 miles. It rivaled my best run times in the marines at 19 years old. I was thinking what in the hell has happened? I will talk about what I have learned of estrogen in my research another day but safe to say it changed my life in a profound way that I will never forget.
The next big shift happened at month seven when I realized there was not need to shave the hair on my back because it had totally dissipated. According to all the documentation on estrogen, with women like me, this happens so rarely that they said don't expect to lose hair. Well, you got me because it all gone. That's a god send too because I could not reach half of it and I could not shave it off.
Next big shift was month eight when I looked at my arms and legs and said, " where the .uck is my hair on my arms and legs and it was gone too. I only have to shave my legs with womens' shaving cream and regular razor. This is so profound because all the documentation I read and have read over the years said this almost never happens. I beginning to wonder if I would be the first woman like me to grow breast larger that a small B and I can only pray. But on the other hand, I cannot imagine running six miles with large breast.
My other changes is similar to what I have read on line for example softing of the skin and face is more feminine. I also have noticed a dramtic change in my hair from extremely unmangeable curly to a straighter smoother but curly hair. The change in my hair has been a godsend too but because before estrogen it so unmanageable that I need to get my hair styled nearly once every six weeks at a minimium.
I am going to close tonight but in my next post I will talk about the emotional changes and why I believe that crying is a real plus to a woman from woman's prospective.
thank you for stopping by,
Rachel
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